Hihi! Is me! LOL no one's reading ><
so it's exam week right now, so far, it's manageable Hahas.. BUT NEVER BE TOO SURE NEVAAAR! Lol
I am so hyper hehe..
and lame.
So i am thinking of doing a part time job this December after my November operation. Damn i gonna miss so many dance practices >< SYF next year!! Goshhhh!
Friday, September 28, 2012
Monday, May 28, 2012
WHICH STREAM??? 0.0
Hey, so I am just is in a confused and frustrated state of mind now..
I am 14 now 2nd year of Secocndary school. is streaming year already. next year I'll be taking different courses. I ain't sure of what I want. I am interested in both MEDICAL and ENTERTAINER, as in doctors, and artiste, i can dance likes singing and acting. I totally find the medical stuff interesting. My science and arts are quite on par with each other. Better than average but still I am so confused and there seems like ther is NO ONE that I could turn to.. So I am just writing to a blog no ones reads anyways... I don't know what I should do. I wanna be a psychologist or an entertainer. there are such big differences. I know I have to work hard for both. I am not sure which carreer I would enjoy more in the long term. I liked the action and excitement of being an artiste, I am interested in the psychology of human. I don't know which passion would last.
Follow my instinct and try all? It would be hard for me to be in the medical field if I start off as an entertainer, if i start off in the medical field, it would be too late for me to make a turn if I found out that it doesn't works for me...
Thus, I am in a dillemma... I don't have anyone to talk to or souge opinions from. Someone, please be an angle and help! THANKS!
ANY opinions are welcome (: ANY at all~
Angelite~
I am 14 now 2nd year of Secocndary school. is streaming year already. next year I'll be taking different courses. I ain't sure of what I want. I am interested in both MEDICAL and ENTERTAINER, as in doctors, and artiste, i can dance likes singing and acting. I totally find the medical stuff interesting. My science and arts are quite on par with each other. Better than average but still I am so confused and there seems like ther is NO ONE that I could turn to.. So I am just writing to a blog no ones reads anyways... I don't know what I should do. I wanna be a psychologist or an entertainer. there are such big differences. I know I have to work hard for both. I am not sure which carreer I would enjoy more in the long term. I liked the action and excitement of being an artiste, I am interested in the psychology of human. I don't know which passion would last.
Follow my instinct and try all? It would be hard for me to be in the medical field if I start off as an entertainer, if i start off in the medical field, it would be too late for me to make a turn if I found out that it doesn't works for me...
Thus, I am in a dillemma... I don't have anyone to talk to or souge opinions from. Someone, please be an angle and help! THANKS!
ANY opinions are welcome (: ANY at all~
Angelite~
OhMyFamily
Hi! It has been so long since I last blogged. I read my old post and I would laugh at myself. Hahaha~ Look at that girl when she was young typing ever so weirdly ^^
However there is still this pain in my heart.. My family isn't getting any better. We talked lesser, I just felt uncomfortable with them. It hurts. Why do I have to mature so fast? Others still bicker with their parents, still jokes around and talk to their parents. And I am just that lonely little daughter in other's eyes, that horrible girl of that family. I still wonder why my mother has to make me into such a horrible person in other's eyes. A disorganised, bratty, bitchy girl image. Why does my mum do this? She tells me to die almost everyday. ONe memory that really hurt me is when I have high high fever, all I can do was lie in my bed all day and my mum came home telling me to die faster and screamed at me. Since young the memories of my mother, in every years, I could remember her threatening to kill me. Iknow she won't, hopefully, but it will stay in my heart. It really hurt me emmotionally. she kind of killed me a millionth time in my mind. Even not waking up on time for school, 'YOU SHOULD JUST DIE, WHY DID YOU COME TO THIS WORLD!'. or maybe spilling a cup of your drink, 'OH JUST DIE GO AND DIE SOONER THE BETTER HOW COULD YOU BE SO CLUMSY. JUST DIE!' I mean they could have just came out unknowingly, but i hated it, why can she smile and laugh to my brother and not me? Seriously... Who am I to her?
I am not complaining or what, I already admit to my fate so what's there to complain. Hahah.. I figured out I should just do well in studies and go on and have a better future.
I still want to repay them for feeding me all this while when I was young. People say a mother would sarcrifies evrything, everything, for her child but not even willing to take a child to school at an age of 8 is more than what she needs to give? Is not like the 8 yrs old could drive a car or what.
9yrs old and WALKING TO SCHOOL ALONE. with that distance. Seriously?
I should just take care of them when they are old anyways. There may still be some love :) Despite the crazy insensible things they have done to me. I still love them I think. Why do I feel a little bitterness when i say i llove them? perharps I don't? Anyways, thanks for bringing me into this world. to suffer. MENTALLY.
However there is still this pain in my heart.. My family isn't getting any better. We talked lesser, I just felt uncomfortable with them. It hurts. Why do I have to mature so fast? Others still bicker with their parents, still jokes around and talk to their parents. And I am just that lonely little daughter in other's eyes, that horrible girl of that family. I still wonder why my mother has to make me into such a horrible person in other's eyes. A disorganised, bratty, bitchy girl image. Why does my mum do this? She tells me to die almost everyday. ONe memory that really hurt me is when I have high high fever, all I can do was lie in my bed all day and my mum came home telling me to die faster and screamed at me. Since young the memories of my mother, in every years, I could remember her threatening to kill me. Iknow she won't, hopefully, but it will stay in my heart. It really hurt me emmotionally. she kind of killed me a millionth time in my mind. Even not waking up on time for school, 'YOU SHOULD JUST DIE, WHY DID YOU COME TO THIS WORLD!'. or maybe spilling a cup of your drink, 'OH JUST DIE GO AND DIE SOONER THE BETTER HOW COULD YOU BE SO CLUMSY. JUST DIE!' I mean they could have just came out unknowingly, but i hated it, why can she smile and laugh to my brother and not me? Seriously... Who am I to her?
I am not complaining or what, I already admit to my fate so what's there to complain. Hahah.. I figured out I should just do well in studies and go on and have a better future.
I still want to repay them for feeding me all this while when I was young. People say a mother would sarcrifies evrything, everything, for her child but not even willing to take a child to school at an age of 8 is more than what she needs to give? Is not like the 8 yrs old could drive a car or what.
9yrs old and WALKING TO SCHOOL ALONE. with that distance. Seriously?
I should just take care of them when they are old anyways. There may still be some love :) Despite the crazy insensible things they have done to me. I still love them I think. Why do I feel a little bitterness when i say i llove them? perharps I don't? Anyways, thanks for bringing me into this world. to suffer. MENTALLY.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
AUBURN ROCKS!!! n HAPPIE NEW YEAR!!!
HIE GUYS !!! EUU GUYS REALLIE R SO COOL ^^ as cool as AUBURN!!! she's a great singer n i reallie love her songs they r so nice n cute ^^ go on youtube n search: Auburn Lalala , or All about hm! they r my FAVs ^^
N WISHING ALL OF YA!
HAPPIE NEW YEAR!!! GUYS Luv ya XOXO ^^
~PINK BLAZE GIRL~
31.12.10 ^^
N WISHING ALL OF YA!
HAPPIE NEW YEAR!!! GUYS Luv ya XOXO ^^
~PINK BLAZE GIRL~
31.12.10 ^^
Friday, October 8, 2010
teachers' day rehearsal! pt2
Well, Hi!
so wat happened next is that Dalina and Wendy was really angry. Dalina scolded me when I wanted to tell her why we added an extra "break" to the music. I was so ANGRY!!! so very angry! Tears are about to fall, but how could I? How could I cry because od that two girls that was usually angry and bossy? So I didn't...
Then when we are moving the instruments, the others was like rushing and both of them put their anger on me!! Still I WON"T cry!!! But then again something happened AGAIN!!! So I just can't stand it FOUR TIMES!!! What a normal girl can stand is alot lesser than this!!! I finally drop a few drops of tears. I swear I will NEVER do that AGAIN!!!
so wat happened next is that Dalina and Wendy was really angry. Dalina scolded me when I wanted to tell her why we added an extra "break" to the music. I was so ANGRY!!! so very angry! Tears are about to fall, but how could I? How could I cry because od that two girls that was usually angry and bossy? So I didn't...
Then when we are moving the instruments, the others was like rushing and both of them put their anger on me!! Still I WON"T cry!!! But then again something happened AGAIN!!! So I just can't stand it FOUR TIMES!!! What a normal girl can stand is alot lesser than this!!! I finally drop a few drops of tears. I swear I will NEVER do that AGAIN!!!
Friday, August 27, 2010
Really sad...
Teacher's day is coming soon... I am in one of the performance, so there is rehearsal. Percussion is our performance! We have totally no synchronization! Wendy wanted us to practice together, which I also want so as to not embarrassed ourselves, during rest time. Others protest, it got her raving mad. She ran out of the hall, everyone except me was happy. I went around the whole school frantically looking for her. i later found her in the toilet crying. I went to comfort her, but she scolded me!!! I was like- what the hell! How could you? Nobody except ME is worried about you. And was of course ULTRA ANGRY but does not want to agitate her further so I just keep quiet.
Later, during another practice, we added an extra break which is not supposed to be there. Wendy, who is the so-called leader, did not know. Dalina knew it and told Wendy. She was like- so? not my fault,is THEM.
I was like What the hell-again. NVM, I stop myself from being upset like how Wendy did.
But... the rehearsal did not end like this. I actually cried which was unusual in school...
Will continue next time, ok? sorry, although is like no one read my blog.-_-'
Friday, July 16, 2010
In love with LIGHTS's song 'Ice'
Go listen please!!! so nice to me!!!
Just love it. Found it by listening to the Waving Flag by young singers. Saw her name LIGHTS, such nice name. so go search it. It was so nice!!!
Go Youtube search for: LIGHT Ice
or
Go to this URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AU9-TRVbhkE&feature=channel
Just love it. Found it by listening to the Waving Flag by young singers. Saw her name LIGHTS, such nice name. so go search it. It was so nice!!!
Go Youtube search for: LIGHT Ice
or
Go to this URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AU9-TRVbhkE&feature=channel
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