hello Exams

Hihi! Is me! LOL no one's reading ><
so it's exam week right now, so far, it's manageable Hahas.. BUT NEVER BE TOO SURE NEVAAAR! Lol
I am so hyper hehe..
and lame.
So i am thinking of doing a part time job this December after my November operation. Damn i gonna miss so many dance practices >< SYF next year!! Goshhhh!

WHICH STREAM??? 0.0

Hey, so I am just is in a confused and frustrated state of mind now..
I am 14 now 2nd year of Secocndary school. is streaming year already. next year I'll be taking different courses. I ain't sure of what I want. I am interested in both MEDICAL and ENTERTAINER, as in doctors, and artiste, i can dance likes singing and acting. I totally find the medical stuff interesting. My science and arts are quite on par with each other. Better than average but still I am so confused and there seems like ther is NO ONE that I could turn to.. So I am just writing to a blog no ones reads anyways... I don't know what I should do. I wanna be a psychologist or an entertainer. there are such big differences. I know I have to work hard for both. I am not sure which carreer I would enjoy more in the long term. I liked the action and excitement of being an artiste, I am interested in the psychology of human. I don't know which passion would last.
Follow my instinct and try all? It would be hard for me to be in the medical field if I start off as an entertainer, if i start off in the medical field, it would  be too late for me to make a turn if I found out that it doesn't works for me...
Thus, I am in a dillemma... I don't have anyone to talk to or souge opinions from. Someone, please be an angle and help! THANKS!
ANY opinions are welcome (: ANY at all~
Angelite~

OhMyFamily

Hi! It has been so long since I last blogged. I read my old post and I would laugh at myself. Hahaha~ Look at that girl when she was young typing ever so weirdly ^^
However there is still this pain in my heart.. My family isn't getting any better. We talked lesser, I just felt uncomfortable with them. It hurts. Why do I have to mature so fast? Others still bicker with their parents, still jokes around and talk to their parents. And I am just that lonely little daughter in other's eyes, that horrible girl of that family. I still wonder why my mother has to make me into such a horrible person in other's eyes. A disorganised, bratty, bitchy girl image. Why does my mum do this? She tells me to die almost everyday. ONe memory that really hurt me is when I have high high fever, all I can do was lie in my bed all day and my mum came home telling me to die faster and screamed at me. Since young the memories of my mother, in every years, I could remember her threatening to kill me. Iknow she won't, hopefully, but it will stay in my heart. It really hurt me emmotionally. she kind of killed me a millionth time in my mind. Even not waking up on time for school, 'YOU SHOULD JUST DIE, WHY DID YOU COME TO THIS WORLD!'. or maybe spilling a cup of your drink, 'OH JUST DIE GO AND DIE SOONER THE BETTER HOW COULD YOU BE SO CLUMSY. JUST DIE!' I mean they could have just came out unknowingly, but i hated it, why can she smile and laugh to my brother and not me? Seriously... Who am I to her?
I am not complaining or what, I already admit to my fate so what's there to complain. Hahah.. I figured out I should just do well in studies and go on and have a better future.
I still want to repay them for feeding me all this while when I was young. People say a mother would sarcrifies evrything, everything, for her child but not even willing to take a child to school at an age of 8 is more than what she needs to give? Is not like the 8 yrs old could drive a car or what.
9yrs old and WALKING TO SCHOOL ALONE. with that distance. Seriously?
I should just take care of them when they are old anyways. There may still be some love :) Despite the crazy insensible things they have done to me. I still love them I think. Why do I feel a little bitterness when i say i llove them? perharps I don't? Anyways, thanks for bringing me into this world. to suffer. MENTALLY.

AUBURN ROCKS!!! n HAPPIE NEW YEAR!!!

HIE GUYS !!! EUU GUYS REALLIE R SO COOL ^^ as cool as AUBURN!!! she's a great singer n i reallie love her songs they r so nice n cute ^^ go on youtube n search: Auburn Lalala , or All about hm! they r my FAVs ^^
N WISHING ALL OF YA!
HAPPIE NEW YEAR!!! GUYS Luv ya XOXO ^^
~PINK BLAZE GIRL~
31.12.10 ^^

teachers' day rehearsal! pt2

Well, Hi!
so wat happened next is that Dalina and Wendy was really angry. Dalina scolded me when I wanted to tell her why we added an extra "break" to the music. I was so ANGRY!!! so very angry! Tears are about to fall, but how could I? How could I cry because od that two girls that was usually angry and bossy? So I didn't...
Then when we are moving the instruments, the others was like rushing and both of them put their anger on me!! Still I WON"T cry!!! But then again something happened AGAIN!!! So I just can't stand it FOUR TIMES!!! What a normal girl can stand is alot lesser than this!!! I finally drop a few drops of tears. I swear I will NEVER do that AGAIN!!!

Really sad...

Teacher's day is coming soon... I am in one of the performance, so there is rehearsal. Percussion is our performance! We have totally no synchronization! Wendy wanted us to practice together, which I also want so as to not embarrassed ourselves, during rest time. Others protest, it got her raving mad. She ran out of the hall, everyone except me was happy. I went around the whole school frantically looking for her. i later found her in the toilet crying. I went to comfort her, but she scolded me!!! I was like- what the hell! How could you? Nobody except ME is worried about you. And was of course ULTRA ANGRY but does not want to agitate her further so I just keep quiet.
Later, during another practice, we added an extra break which is not supposed to be there. Wendy, who is the so-called leader, did not know. Dalina knew it and told Wendy. She was like- so? not my fault,is THEM.
I was like What the hell-again. NVM, I stop myself from being upset like how Wendy did.
But... the rehearsal did not end like this. I actually cried which was unusual in school...
Will continue next time, ok? sorry, although is like no one read my blog.-_-'

In love with LIGHTS's song 'Ice'

Go listen please!!! so nice to me!!!
Just love it. Found it by listening to the Waving Flag by young singers. Saw her name LIGHTS, such nice name. so go search it. It was so nice!!!
Go Youtube search for: LIGHT Ice
or
Go to this URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AU9-TRVbhkE&feature=channel

Archery in school as CCA!!!

Archery!!! It's so fun.^_^
It's time to say more about it then!
The whole of Primary 6 is doing archery for 3 or 4 weeks. It's heavy, at first but get used to it slowly...
Yesterday (Friday) is our second lesson. There is the shooting balloon thing or what~ My aiming is damn lousy lohz! I did not try my best though.-_-' HA~ Strangely, I got the present, an archery shaped pencil. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! They all so jealous loh! I don't really want it, you know~ I actually like using mechanical pencil only. SO I gave it to the birthday girl Hui Yi( fake name). It's her birthday, that Dalina wanted it so much but cuz the birthday girl wanted it as much. So Hui Yi gets it! She is extremely angry for awhile lah! I prepared a birthday present for her as she is my classmate, best friend, partner and listener. The present is a watch, box of chocolate (that i decorated myself) all in a nice flowery recycle bag. She was very very very extremely happy! Her emotions showed everything!!! Haha~
Whoa!!! So tired now, that's all.
Pink Blaze girl
17/7/10
2:04pm
>_^

Nitendo DS in school? Doesn't sound right!!!

Hi! Been in school so no bloging loh SAD~
I have so much to tell! In school, we sit 3 or 4 in a row. My classmates next to me is Dalina and Jacob (fake name), Dalina will bring her Nitendo DS to school! Which is not allow of course (in Singapore). Dalina will lend Jacob her DS, and during our MT lesson, where Jacob is sitting beside me, will take the DS out to play! I saw him doing that, and was extremely angry. I told him to keep it, and he just smiled (he was lucky to have me as the 'friend' siting beside him cuz if is Wendy, he will be dead) .
Well, that Wendy actually is one of my best friend. She is the co-class monitor, and she knew already that Jacob is playing DS during class as she is siting behind us. We are all from the HMT class, so Jacob though that he is sooooooooo smart, no need to study! I was so angry, how could he! Wendy wanted me to tell her quickly if Jacob is playing DS, cuz she wants to stop Jacob from not paying attention and disrespecting the teacher.
Enough about that then...
Pink Blaze girl
17/7/10

HALO!!! (4:20pm)

Hi! Here I am. I have been so busy! Preparing for PSLE! Actually, I am a Primary 6 girl. so must prepare for exam. Although I am in the first class,my results are lousy-_-' Dunno what to do. So much HW that dun have the time to post on blog. I just found the time to type some words. And I am now learning my spelling, but my 2nd language's spelling is damm lousy.:( What can I do to help myself??? NVM I dun think anyone would know when I myself dunno how to. Hehe!!! and what I mean by 'damm lousy' is failed. This year I failed for once and one time is 55/100. Terrible isn't it? HAHA Must get 80 and above!!! =D
Bye for now!
Pink Blaze Girl
31/3/10

19/11/08

19Nov2008
wow I have not been posting quite a long time sry...cuz from 17novto18nov got some fun programe so i went playing hiking in RAIN Haha so these few week i am going not to post much as i m busy**

14/11/08

my dairy 14/11/08

I had not write any "diary"... HAHA Cause I too busy as well as today so, today was the first day of thisschool holiday i help my mother in her shop so was pretty busy hee ok...

so bye

Pink Blaze girl

14/11/08

7/11/08

7NOV 2008 Friday...My dairy ... Humid

Today I woke up early in the morning-(5.35am) and Bath and out i go with my class to Malaysia. First we went to the Pewter Factory we then have our shopping time... I bought a little rabbit toy is so cute, my friend bought a vase is beautiful!!!^_^ I wish I could buy one.Next, we went to the Bee and Fruit Farm, I tasted the honey it was yummy and Know much about all sorts fruits. Then, we went for our lunch, it was YUMMY I like it SO much...it's like a buffet, and of cause there is also fruit the mangoes were so sweet and also VERY sour too. we also went to the ostrich farm I t was fun. the ostrich egg can hold up to 200KG wow!!! We also feed the ostrich with dried corns, we need to buy it but i did not, cause some don't dare to feed so I take some from here...take some from there then not need but as well as for feeding the goat. HaHa!

last, we went to the chocolate outlets, as i have no money, I only bought a small RM6.00 box of chocolate. Finally, that's the end of our day.

EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE IS EXCITING!!!

PINKBLAZEGIRL

Dairy 6/11/08

6Nov 2008 My first time writing in an online "diary" Sunny

Hi, today i woke up at 10:30 quite late right? After going to buy the material for Loy-kathong, a thailand occasion which you can make or buy a float decorated by ribbons and put it at the sea the more it go further to the other side of the sea all the bad lucks will go away as the float and you can also make a wish and it may come ture, with my mother we finish buying it and went home i started doing it, it is quite fun. Hey, there is a song in Loy-Kathong you can go online and look for more videos about it. But after that, i came down to play my computer, I like listening songs, so i went to http://www.youtube.com/ i heared connected and two voices one song and many more you know. One of my fav hobby is to sing and other is : cook, dance, read ,draw, watch TV...

4:20 pm

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